Sooo, my birthday had come and past, annnddd much to my surprise, I GOT A CAR!!! ... it was fabtabulous. no joke. : D
buttt anyyywhooseel. recently i have decided math is the worst thing that could have ever happened to me, i literally looked at my test for 20 minutes hoping that some sort of magic fairy would write my answers... yeah didnt work. nottt att all. soo i did horrible. worst part. i knew what i was doing.
sooo done ranting on math. one of the worst things in the world is losing someone, something even harder, is someone else losing someone, and all you can do is watch. everyone grieves in a different way, some people talk to everyone and anything until the pain is diluted enough they can remember to breath. another type of person talks to one or two close people so that someone can be there when you cant be there for yourself. then there are the people who scuttle off into a room a place or even a memory and grieve alone. nothing you say or do will help and all you can do is watch and pretend you know what your doing, because really, none of us do.
we wander this earth in hope of finding that special someone, or hoping to change the world a little bit before we leave. but in reality, were all lost, just hoping that someone knows the way and can point us towards the light.
we all cry, break, smile, laugh, scream, and die. its how it goes. we need to remember that life isnt as serious as we make it seem, because in the end.. no one makes it out alive all we can do is hope that when we leave someone remembers us, misses us and loves us.
we as a society have forgotten how to live, how to breath, and how to trust. but most of all, weve forgotten how to love. what it really means, and what we do to the people we say we love, because its not really what you say, but what you do.
soo this friend of mine the one hurting, might actually be the only person to read this, orr maybe nobody will, life is like that sometimes. i wonder who will read this, hmm, more then likely nobody. but itd be cool if someone did.
anyways, ive now ranted about almost nothing for farrr to long. soo goodnight for now. to nobody.